Hi, everyone. I hope this message finds you well and safe at HOME, if you can be home, of course. If you can't be home and you are an essential employee- thank you. It's a scary time and your efforts are far more than appreciated. Please be safe out there. It's been a little while since I touched the blog and I have to admit, this post is going to be a little abnormal for me- it won't be focused on pieces of furniture, or home renovation/decor inspiration. Nope, this blog post is all about what's been going on in my brain as a small business owner, and it started *way* before the corona virus outbreak.
Going as far back as late fall/early winter of 2019, I hit a wall with some of my furniture pieces. If I'm being totally honest, my favorite part of refinishing has always been to source different pieces myself and refinish them as I see fit, then list them for sale. I realize that this means that sometimes, it might take a little while to find the right buyer, but I truly enjoy the artistic freedom that comes with refinishing pieces that speak to you as the designer. Now, I know you're thinking- Meredith, you said you weren't going to talk about pieces of furniture...you're right. I'm not. What I'm REALLY getting ready to talk about is how scary it can be to create a piece of work that comes from entirely from your own brain and heart, and putting it out there for the world to see.
It's an incredibly scary and vulnerable feeling, and I would suspect that many artists and small business owners feel the same. You post the latest piece and hold your breath... "Well, here's hoping SOMEONE likes this or sees the beauty in it." So, in late fall/early winter, I was feeling really beat up. I had an abundance of finished (and unfinished) inventory, and it felt like complete rejection that none of it was selling. A friend who also refinishes furniture suggested that I find more custom work to do because that not only ensures the income, but also that the pieces will move. Makes sense, right? It does, but... the problem for me is that- if I have TOO much custom work, I feel restricted when it comes to the artistic freedom part that I mentioned above. (Can't have your cake and eat it, too?)
Does any of this make sense, or am I coming off as a total lunatic? Not sure that it matters either way, especially if you're still reading! Any way, I digress. I ended up taking a big break from refinishing furniture because it was starting to feel far less enjoyable and way more stressful than it used to. I'm not sure there was a turning point where I decided I needed to start up again, but, by doing a few projects around the house that were just for us, I'm starting to feel ready to jump back into my inventory. That may change a day from now, a week from now, or whenever, given everything that is going on with the state of affairs in the world, but for the moment, I'm holding tight to that glimmer of motivation and spark of excitement.
Thanks for reading. It is my hope that this post is not interpreted as a pity-seeking or compliment-seeking post, but rather as insight into the mind and heart of a small business owner. I know that I am not alone in my thoughts and feelings, but sometimes it's difficult to be honest about them. Be well, keep the faith, and be kind to one another.